My frustration boiled over halfway into my third two-week meditation retreat. As training for my mindfulness-based graduate psychology program, I had now been meditating regularly for a year and a half and attended multiple retreats - yet I still felt just as completely flat and disconnected as I did when I started. Disconnected from myself, from my emotions, from the picturesque Rocky Mountain winter landscape that surrounded me. From pretty much everything.

The end of undergrad had brought with it…